I promise

I promise I'm not very different from you...I'm a Momma. I get up early to get the kids ready for school. I take care of my home. Laundry, cleaning, cooking, playing with the kids. Sweeping the floor a thousand times a day, after each meal, snack, and then another snack. I run the kids around with me wherever I go. We go grocery shopping and pick up an ice cream cone at Maceys (so I don't go completely crazy while shopping). We have play dates with other Mommas, and chat about our babies, our husbands, our lives...while our kids run wild. I'm really not to different. Please don't treat me different just because I have Cancer. The big "C" word... Don't get me wrong. I am better because of it. It has refined me as a person, my spirit, my life, and continues to do so. I am so blessed...Sometimes it takes difficult experiences in life to really "open" your eyes to what you have right in front of you...to help you change. That's how it has worked out for me. But really. I have good days like you, and bad days to. Hell, I cry when I'm happy and I cry when I'm sad. I cry because I'm in love...why hold it all in is my motto! I promise I'm not very different from you. I have a lot to talk about other then Cancer. Give me a chance and I'll talk your ear off! My name is Sarah. I am a child of God...it is so nice meeting you. xo

My Hero

I've got a Hero. I am the luckiest girl alive to have him in my life. I look up to him so much. I know I can call him at anytime and he will make time for me. He always has good advice to give...even if I may not want to hear it, he still gives it! I know he has my best interest in mind, as well as others. He taught me how to live, by living a good life. He taught me how to work, by teaching me. He instilled in me a desire to seek for good things, to be the best I can be, to serve and help others. To work hard and to play hard. When times are tough, to remember the many blessings I have. To look at the good things this life has for us. To be proud of our beautiful country. To be grateful for the freedoms we have. He has made me feel important, and special. When I was a kid, he comforted me when I had a bad dream, gave me a blessing when I had my first day of school, trusted me. Took us kids to work with him, and put up with our shenanigans. He had Faith in me, when I had none. He trusted me, and supports my decisions. He never gave up, even when life was difficult for him. My hero is my Dad. I hope everyone has someone to look up to, like I've been blessed to have. Seriously. Where would I be without him? I thank Heavenly Father for him everyday. I hope I can be more like him. I love you Dad, to the moon and back. Thank you for everything. xoxo

No matter what

The other night, after the babies were in bed, Andy and I were up talking. It was one of those talks we have had a thousand times. "What are we going to do? What are our options? What treatments can we do?" We expressed our concerns...at one point I broke down and started crying. I just want to get better I said. I am so tired...I want to live. Andy said he knew. He wanted all of the same things I did.
After a bit Andy said, "We already know Sarah, no matter what we won't give up. No matter what happens we will keep going, no matter what, we will move forward. We will do our best. We will keep going even if it is hard...We will keep going." My tears flowed freely, and I was overwhelmed with love and gratitude for this man. Who had such great faith in me, in us...in God. When times are difficult he reminds me of what we have...No matter what we will never give up. No matter what.