datestampMonday, March 29, 2010

2 of the reasons why I'm thanking YOU

From the bottom of my heart I want to thank ALL of you. Thank you for loving me. Thank you for giving me hope. Thank you for helping me to bare this burden. Thank you doesn't seem enough, I hope it will do.

Sarah's Story

Sarah had cancer for the first time at age 19. At that time tumors had engulfed her stomach. Doctors removed her stomach and the cancer was gone. We thought everything was fine. Sarah is now 34, married with two children. It is a miracle she is even alive. Three and a half years ago her cancer came back. She wrote this after finding out about the cancer for the second time:

“I have Cancer. I am 31 years old. I have a beautiful baby girl. I have a husband, his name is Andy. I love him so much. I have cancer, but it doesn’t have me. I have a family to raise, a husband to love. I am so young. I want more children. I want to live until I’m 95 years old. I have dreams and desires. I have purpose.

At times I have been afraid, but only for moments. I pray to my Heavenly Father and ask him for guidance, for strength, for life. I feel like it is not my time to go. I do not want to die. I am not ready. This cancer has reminded me how precious life is, how short, how important, and what is important; i.e. family, friends, faith, God, country, human life, people. We are surrounded by so many… Do we serve them, do I? I will. I promised Heavenly Father the day we went into the E.R. The day I thought I had a pinched nerve on my left shoulder, while I was waiting in the x-ray room, I knew something was wrong and I started bargaining.

When we were told I had Cancer in my abdominal wall, fatty tissue, next to that wall, liver, spleen, left ovary and left kidney. We thought it was a death sentence. Andy and I sobbed in each others arms. Andy called family. There were a lot of tears. Blessings were given, prayers were said. I do not remember what was said, but miracles proceeded that night. I do not think it was an accident I went into the E.R. I think it was because God wanted me to live, and learn something or help someone.”

Sarah is living proof that miracles exist. After her first battle with cancer doctors were unsure if she would be able to carry children, if nutritionally she could support a child. She was able to have Ella, when Ella was five months old Sarah was diagnosed a second time. Sarah did traditional chemotherapy, lost her hair- which was the least of her worries. Her initial doctor told her to go home and make herself comfortable. The end was near. There was nothing left to do. Sarah and Andy felt that was not good enough. They went to the Huntsman Cancer Institute. Here they found new doctors. Amazingly the doctor that specialized in Sarah’s type of cancer had recently moved to SLC from Texas . Sarah began a new cutting edge cancer treatment, chemo every day. And it proved to be successful. Sarah and Andy finally had hope and were working towards recovery.

In the spring of 2008 when going in for a regular CT scan, doctors were shocked to see a baby. Doctors had previously told Sarah she was sterile because of all the medication she was on. She would not have more children. Sarah’s doctors recommended they get an abortion. Sarah and Andy did not feel that was the path to take. Noah was born in October of 2008 a healthy baby boy. After all the exposure to medication and to toxic chemotherapy drugs, Noah shows no signs of trauma. He is now a healthy 18 month old.

Most recently Sarah went in for a PET scan. The results have shown the cancer is metabolically active, a smoldering fire, tumors have grown again. When asking doctors what others have done in her situation the response was “There is no one in your situation, others who have had your type of cancer have not lived this long.”

The future is uncertain. But with all the uncertainty, Sarah finds strength, faith and hope in God. This blog will be a way for Sarah to share her story.

datestampWednesday, March 10, 2010


One attribute that Sarah has is stubbornness. My dad would say she has always been this way. Sarah has tenacity, strength and endurance. No one is going to tell her how to live her life, not even cancer. That stubbornness might just be what gets her through all of this.

datestampFriday, March 5, 2010

Sarah and Ella

This is Sarah and Ella, about about two weeks after being diagnosed with cancer for the second time in November 2006. Ella was just five months old. Cancer is a strong word, one that creates chaos, instills fear and can suck the happiness right out of the room. On 11/22/2006 I wrote in my journal: "We found out late Sunday night that Sarah has cancer. It is in her liver and spleen and her abdominal cavity. It sounds severe. I have been in shock the last few days. We are hoping and praying for a miracle. I am scared. I am devastated. I want everything to be ok." Over three years have passed since then. We have seen miracles. Sarah has never lost hope, never given up and always looked to God. She has been and will continue to be an example to me.

datestampThursday, March 4, 2010

Sarah's Sweet Family

This is Sarah with her sweet husband Andy, and her two children-ages 3 1/2 and 1 1/2 years old.

datestampTuesday, March 2, 2010

My Sister

Sarah is my sister. She has cancer. She is also married with two small children. Donations will be used to help pay the mountain of medical bills, a necessary evil to fight this cancer and win.